Dear diaryland, thank you for being such an amazing blog host for the past years but...
It's official.

bahness.wordpress.com

Please take note and re-link me if you still want :)

Thank you.
xoxoxo

Rambled at 7:26 p.m.

Something happened today that made me realize something.

That I'm not as neurotically low self-esteemed as I used to be.

Which is a really good thing. Because if people were to look at me last time I would be all like ??@?@@?@T%%$^&@ in my head. 356 random thoughts would run through my mind and end up making me feel not-so-good about myself. I used to fret over EVERYTHING that I was. What people thought about me (or what I think people thought about me) mattered a bloody hell lot.
I knew who I was, but I was pretty much unhappy all the time.

Now I'm very less affected by all these. I think somewhere along the way I just got tired of always trying to criticizing myself for stupid strangers over the most insignificant stupid things.
Ya, stupid right? Everyone knows we can't please strangers. That's why they're called strange wtf.

And and and... My weight is back to 50kg but I'm feeling much more confident about my weight than I have ever been. Of course occasionally I blurt out "Omg wtf" when looking in the mirror, but the deep sinking feeling (of depression wtf) doesn't get the best of me and hover over me like a sonnovabitch every waking moment I have.

And no, I will not change the way I walk,
I will not change how I laugh,
I won't be changing who I hang out with just to please people,
and yes, I use wtf alot. Heh.

Rambled at 9:21 p.m.

I have not been updating, I know. Think I've lost my touch...
Anyway, I still have not officially moved to Wordpress because I will miss this diaryland place alot :( I'm gonna miss designing templates and adding codes and such, which is the biggest thing that's holding me back. Goddammit I cant stand the current default Wordpress templates! ZZZ...
People have been telling me that sometimes my diaryland page doesn't load which is peculiar since I visit my blog 345678 times a day round the clock but encounter no such problem.
Oh well, expect me to make an official move soon. By the end of this month perhaps?

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Hmm lemme see... Oh yeah, birthday. There was no birthday entry because you see, birthdays are just like any other day. I don't get excused from school or sadly, even my curfew wtf.
But apart from the boring daily routines, I feel obliged to announce that I am a happy girl.
Pizza Hut & towning with Rahmah on Wednesday where we finally indulged ourselves in the new cheezy fondue pizza thing, had some intellectual conversation (heh) and then in the train back home I got myself a cutie. Yarightwhateverkbye.
Thursday with Nisha at Swensens and filled ourselves too much. Chatted like there's no tomorrow (until Nisha had to go to the toilet pronto that is..)
Then with...
Okay, basically did alot of eating with people lah.

I'd have to thank everyone for their wishes, calls and gifts. Truly appreciated!
Had to use my sister's phone to call up all the unknown numbers I received SMSes from pretending to look for a particular Jack/Lee/some random name in order to discover the identities of their owner heh. I didn't want to just call them up from my phone and ask who it is in fear of mildly insulting them for not having their number (even if wasn't my fault that my phone got stolen). Successful with all except one number. That person spelt my name wrong ley. Don't care, I'm going to try again later.

My birthday isn't over just yet 'cus I have yet to celebrate it with my other loves. Plus, my uncle sent me a message on Friendster (yes that wasn't a typo) saying that he has something waiting for me back at the apartment. Woots.

Till then, Good night all. I'm off to download Dishwalla.

Rambled at 11:10 p.m.

The cute facilitator (Bernard) isn't teaching networking lesson yet again!

National Day had to mess up our timetable. Bloody qwertyuiop.

ps: I hope it has nothing to do with Bernard thinking I'm a pervert or anything wtf

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OMG sibeh sian. ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzZZzzzz.

Rambled at 10:21 a.m.

OK there's a great deal of sane human beings out there who HATE that irritating Umbrella song by Rihanna right?

Click on the following link to listen to the version by Mandy Moore:
http://music.yahoo.com/video/45701948

It's easier on the ears.

And I understand that some of you may not be able to watch the video link so I'm posting a YouTube of the song.

Yes, your welcome =D

Rambled at 10:40 p.m.

but thank you so much :)

Rambled at 12:06 a.m.

Nice.

ps: wordpress is so complicated. and most of the templates are butt-ugly.

Rambled at 5:52 p.m.

OK people listen up! It's either:

• bahness.wordpress.com
  
• juicywindow.wordpress.com
  
• virtuallytangled.wordpress.com
  

I've made 3 blogs. hoho. I dont know whether they can be deleted but I'll worry about that later, when I decide on which name I'm going to keep.

Rambled at 2:34 p.m.

I admire Lin's ability to blog on her angst with such detail and sense.

Because each time I wanna blog about something that's fucking me up real bad, it always comes out like this: !@#$%^&*()qwertyuioplkjhtredsdfghj
Very frustrating.

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I still dont know what my Wordpress nickname is going to be. I've had it with this 'lost-fire.diaryland.com'. Lost fire? How fucking lame. So... any suggestions?

Rambled at 1:49 p.m.

I'm supposed to be doing my Professional Profiling report now but the only progress I've made since this is changing the report template twice and adding a blank table for my SWOT analysis.
Extracts from my report would look like this:
"I interviewed udkhfwuehd to gain insights on ihedfoiwheodhiew"
"I was keen to know how the company blab la bla . This report will cover on the company’s blab la bla

*Photo here*"

Yeap... I think I'm progressing just fine...

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I ditched class on Friday because Bernard wasn't teaching (Nisha SMSed informing me of this TRAGEDY). Haha that's a good enough reason OK? I won't tolerate no networking nonsense unless there's a particular Bernard in the picture. Yes, it helps that he's cute. And that he's unhumanly patient. andhasacutebutt. okyoudidntreadboutthathere.bye.

So Nisha, Edwin and myself headed off to The Cathay (leaving poor Nanie in school) for Rush Hour 3 and did a hell of a lot of walking all over the place. LJS, Marina Square, Cavana, Esplanade, One Fullerton, Starbucks, Raffles City and I surprisingly didn't buy anything! (except food)
Awesome day that was.

I realized I'm not the only person who gets tired and sleepy while out. The other person is Edwin and we were whining about feeling sleepy. So I think Singapore should have one of those capsule places like in Japan where people can just snuggle up and take a nap in one of these:

Wouldn't that be nice? People who feel tired from work (or shopping. or just from being awake) could just pay an hourly fee, pop into one of these, re-energize, and then get back out to work or whatever.
Please? It would help boost productivity trust me. Heh and I'd be their Number 1 customer :D

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Ive been having alot of cravings this past week. Doughnuts (Made Nanie wait for me to queue. Had 3), Starbucks (satisfied that one with a Venti cup. Couldn't finish. Nisha helped) and now, as of 1.30am at night, I'm hungry for pizza.
Soon you will start seeing me in maternity clothes, lactating and all...
-___-

Rambled at 12:28 a.m.

I just got this in my inbox:

Hi qwertyuiop!

On behalf of all of us at the NKF, we wish you a Happy Birthday!

Thank you for the support you have shown to our less fortunate friends.

May your special day be filled with fun, joy and laughter!

Cheers
All of us at NKF

August babies, click here to see the card

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Well firstly, qwertyuiop (name changed to protect identity) is my dad. I know lah my name is long but dont call me by the last few letters of my name until like that ley...

Maybe it WAS intended for my dad. But if so, how come he/them know my email?!?!?!wgeirughdf

And since when did we have anything to do with the NKF?

Despite that all, t'was pretty sweet heh.

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Someone just called me muffin. That is by far, the yummiest thing anyone has ever called me! hahaokbye

Rambled at 10:59 p.m.

What the fuck is your problem?
Huh? HUH? HUH?!

Rambled at 9:30 p.m.

I'm still !@#$%^&*() over what happened just now.
HAHA omg I can't stop LOLing about it. Sorry can't give out details *shys away*

Bah.
I.feel.like.such.a.dweeb.lah.ok.
But I cant help it!!!

And Hal is being such an asshole to me! What kind of friend insensitively provokes your feelings you tell me?!
Irritating seyyyyy.
Tomorrow I purposely arrive late then you know hor. I'll let you wait all by your lonesome for some 345678 mins before I turn up.

Rambled at 9:39 p.m.

After everything, he's still pretty much a jerk. A stranger now more than ever. Theres no kindness in those eyes. You never fail to remind me why I left and how I'm so right about you.

Still, I feel stupid.

Rambled at 9:54 p.m.

Some person on Friendster reminded me that my birthday is on the 16th this month.
That means... 1 week plus to my birthday!

And like every other birthday, I dont know what I want. I really cant think of anything ley...

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OK I remembered what I want already.

• A new Sony Ericsson phone. Duh.
  If I work weekends, I'd get earn the money to get me a new phone by the end of the month. But going out is quite a problem as it already is *grunts* So expect to see me with a new phone by the end of year 2020 wtf.
  Anyways it's hard deciding which phone to buy. You people know what I'm talking about... The nice looking ones are always bimbos, the good phones are always ugly, the other phones either have too many features you'll never use or too little featues, or sold out. Makes you wanna get up and manufacture your own damn phones lah...

  
  My mind is made up for the S500i which is now out of stock. They've looked into the whole keypad cracking issue and are resolving it so I dont need to worry about changing keypads anymore.
  No 3G? Who cares? I only use the video calls fuction to look at myself on the phone and make faces and the only person I 3Ged to with my last phone is my mum -_-
  It dosent have auto focus or flash and although the interior is green, I want it because it's so darn pretty and not as bimbotic as the LG phones.
  Plus it's quite cheap compared to this phone which I love in urban grey :
  
  It has more features than the S500 but still no auto focus and flash -__-
  The cybershot phones are too expensive + ugly. (Except Nisha's phone that is... I MAY get the same phone as her's because it's cybershot)

  I'm not considering the flip phone as of now because Slider phones are teh sexzxzxz

• I already have an MP3, but I'd happily accept a one-gig-bigger black/white Creative Stone Plus please. heh.
  

• And I want long-lived happiness :)

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My fellow spree-ers NANIE & NISHA, check out the #2 - White Long wallet (SGD 23.00). Damn nice lah! Where are you guys?

Rambled at 5:19 p.m.

You know how you'd like to try some things at least once before you die? Well, add 'watch video by Steven Lim on YouTube' to that list ladies and gentlemen.

Please feel free to leave comment after the blank stare.

Rambled at 12:05 a.m.

This:

Yes, blank. Void. Nothing. Confused even...
The presentation was nothing close to a nightmare and it ended just as soon as it started.
I should really be happy here but it's like... over? Just like that? 13 weeks of pissy moods, blank moments, planning, executing, codings, meetings, late nights and insane vulgarities were all over JUST LIKE THAT. I wasn't expecting fireworks or a standing ovation (although that would be nice. haha) but there really was nothing significant that ended our struggle.
All of us walked out of the room and looked ateach other in disbelief.
I think we were too paranoid. I even dreamt about Serene wtf. In our head we had this picture of a really difficult bitch critisizing our work (but in my dream Serene was nice and asalboleh though) but when the bitch never showed, it just really threw us off. Kinda hard to belief it's over.

Wow.

I just want to say that although my team isn't as efficient or whatever, I'm glad we got to keep it together through all this and most of the time just laughing things off. FYP can really destroy your world...


Okok before this sounds like a breakup blog post,
AK, Hal, Lin, I want to give you all a biggg hug lah wtf. Heh :)

Rambled at 11:53 p.m.